Thursday, December 20, 2012

All I Want for Christmas

Can't believe Christmas is less than a week away!  What an exciting season!

Yet... there is a yearning this Christmas that has never been so strong.  5 Decembers ago, we had a (surprise!) miscarriage.  There has been a special place in my heart ever since then for Baby Flagler. 

Especially this year: we've come SO FAR in the adoption process.  Lots more paperwork, doctor visits, fingerprints, home visits (x4!), fundraising, final approval, and w a i t i n g. 

Are there things that I want for Christmas?  Sure. 
But there's ONE thing that I really, really, really, really, really, reeeeeeaaaaaaaally want!


Any guesses?

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In Mariah Carey's words:
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

In all seriousness, in this Advent time of anticipation, I'm anticipating... that phone call or email that will change our lives forever.  It's a very special place to be in this season of celebrating Christ's birth.  Jesus was a miracle baby!  And we're waiting for our own miracle to arrive!
We've been praying for a 2012 baby.  As there are only 12 days left in 2012, we are starting to realize that God leading us to pray so specifically might not have been so we would see our prayers answered... it might have been for our faith to grow through these prayers. 
God has definitely been drawing us closer to Himself, and for that, we will always be thankful!  Whether or not our prayers for a 2012 baby are answered, we know that God can do it, if He chooses... but even if He does not, our faith in Him will not waiver. 
(The passage from Daniel 3 illustrates a similar confidence in the ability of God and surrender to His will... God's taken me to this passage several times recently.)

I want to focus on Christ during this season... not my yearning, my anticipation, my desires.  Not on our future child(ren) or our calling to adopt.  This is the celebration of Jesus's birthday. 
I will choose to celebrate HIM!  Can you help me if I get distracted?  Seriously. :)

Source: google.com via Mari on Pinterest

3 comments:

  1. oh tricia. i'm praying for you guys.

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  2. Praying that God brings your miracle baby into your life very soon! Merry Christmas!

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  3. Praying for you! And excited about what God is going to do...

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