You have been on my mind and heart so much as this Mother's Day approaches. And today is Birth Mother's Day. I really wish we could be together today. I would love for you to see the child that both of us love so much. I would love for you to see his smile and hear his laugh and know that he is SO loved in his new family.
I am so, so thankful that you chose Matthew and I to be the family for your son. Again, I'll never know the things you considered or know fully why you chose us, but I have confidence that God led you to choose us to be his family.
don't know how you're feeling today, and I'll probably never know the
journey of emotions you have been through this past year. But, He does.
L, I don't know your story. I know bits and pieces, some pieces filled with hurt and pain and struggle. I'm so, so sorry for the sad parts of your story. But, I want you to know that you are Loved. Not because you're a 'birthmom', but because you're a creation of the King. God has a plan for your life, though you may not understand it. He can make all things beautiful.
Speaking of beautiful, I will ALWAYS treasure the picture we have of you with our son. You and your mom. Yet the sadness in your eyes haunts me. I'll never fully know where it comes from, what led you to choose adoption for your child. SO, when I see it, I pray for you. I pray that you will one day be able to rejoice knowing the purpose God has for your life. Not as a mother who placed her child(ren) for adoption, but as a Daughter of the King of the Universe!
One day, I hope we can meet, and I can tell you about how He changed my life. How He changed the sad and hurtful and painful parts of my story into Peace, into friendship with the Creator of the Universe. How He led me in this journey to being the mother to your son.
Dear L, you are beautiful. You are loved. You are valued, treasured, respected. Your son will always know these things about you. I promise. And I pray that you know them too.